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OrientedDis.. Disoriented. |
Sunday, April 20, 2003 sigh. either music has this profound effect to completely alter my mood, or the music is just oddly appropriate for how I'm feeling at the moment on several various aspects. Discovering music I must have downloaded a while ago, but they managed to be hidden in some random folders on my computer.. so listening to some of it now.. Firstly Smashing Pumpkins - Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness ..... it really baffles me how this song really did manage to make me.. well.. sad.. and I only realized the title of the song after it had accidentally been repeating over and over on my headphones without me recognizing it. Yeah, sometimes I put on headphones and I kind of forget that I'm listening to music, especially when there aren't words.. where it almost feels like some sort of subconscious background music to my thoughts at the moment. Finally I changed the song... had never heard this song before.. Evanescence - Lies... which was quite appropriate to hear based upon my feelings after that other song.. blasting on my headphones, yeah. Then went here. Just wanted to make sure that what I was hearing was correct. Interesting. I always thought there might be some sort of 'Christian undertone' to this band, but this song only makes it completely obvious that there is.. whereas other songs of theirs ... it's a very interesting song though.. I can't tell if it has Christian undertones or is doubting the themes of Christianity. The title for the song works both ways. Either she feels some of the main themes revolving around Christianity are 'lies', or she is singing about finding comfort against the lies of the world based upon the themes of Christianity. I naturally prefer to assume the latter. However.. how the themes of Christianity are sang in this song.. that's the only part that confuses me. The themes stated in almost a rather-evil-sound/scream. But then I assume it's just a different form of 'expression', so I figure it's not my call to decide 'how I feel 'the themes of Christianity should be sang.' ha. anyway. Then discovered this song.. The All-American Rejects - Swing, Swing .. had forgot about this song. A fun song to just.. yeah.. belt out. And now this song.. Relaxing Piano - Sky Dance .. trying to kind of ease things in my mind. One recurring thought is a dream I had last night. I've been dreaming a lot lately about really random things. Well. I drove to a different part of California at night to meet a friend of mine. When I arrived he said.. "wow.. look at the sky.." And there was almost like this constant shooting-star in the sky.. it just looked like a large bright light growing from space.. with a trail of rocks (other small bright lights) trailing behind it: a meteor. And while it was really amazing in the night sky... suddenly the light just started growing as it seemed to have broken into the earth's atmosphere.. and the flaming ball grew increasingly visible until it passed directly overhead us and came crashing into the side of a mountain nearby... which upon the forests surrounding this area burst into flames.. and I was just struggling to get in my car and drive off as the fires seemed to have surrounded us.. and then I woke up.. thinking I was still in the dream or something.. and since I rarely dream, when I do dream, I often wake up from them and think that they weren't dreams at all and that something is happening around me.. I don't know... it was just disturbing... I woke up thinking.. "Yes.. I made it back!.. how close are the fires now?.." ... it was just really really odd... but aren't all dreams? Anyway. That stupid dream just seems to keep recurring in my thoughts repeatedly today. . . . babbled Lin |
