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Friday, February 28, 2003 Conversations Because I have nothing better to post here. And I think my family is weird. Or I think my mom is weird. Nice but weird. Haha.. I don't know.. maybe she's going through some sort of midage crisis.. she always sounds like she's trying to sound "hip" when she talks. Or sometimes I feel like I'm talking more maturely than she is. Actually, it's always been this way. Nevermind. I don't know why we even bother talking to each other over IM.. it's too weird to me... we have these random crazy conversations.. and she's always trying to take what I'm saying very lightly or something.. sometimes it can really bug me. ESPECIALLY when she simply SIGNS OFF when I'm in the middle of something significant I'm trying to figure out with her. Actually, when anyone does this it pisses me off. But I'll still always greet you with "wb :) " ("welcome back").. haha.. too funny. I'll be thinking something like.. "Argh! I don't care if they have a crappy internet connection! There's no excuse for signing off sporatically like that!" .. and then they'll be back 2 minutes later and I'll greet them warmly with.. "hii. welcome back. :) " . Yes I'm one weird kid when I want to get picky about stupid things that don't really matter. Oh. What's the kicker? When Derek signs off without saying goodbye. He knows this. I think. As I did explicitly tell him once I don't understand why he doesn't even make the effort to say goodbye if we're kind-of talking and then a few minutes goes by and he's gone.. he's better about this now. I hope he goes to jail for speeding actually. Haha.. JUST kidding. But he is going to be in court tomorrow for some sort of speeding offense. That's right. Don't speed kiddies. *grin* I'm feeling weird tonight. I had a little alcohol, nothing nearly significant to make me feel even remotely "buzzed" (not that I'd really know either? I'm assuming I'd know if I was buzzed..) .. I'm feeling weird in the sense that I'm feeling overly sarcastic or something. I'm just feeling very cynical or something. I don't know. So I'm refraining from my somewhat serious blog and e-mail.. and.. that's about it. And this was about to be about some of my weird conversations today. I wasn't exactly productive as I had hoped to be, so I'll pretend that these random-conversations-that-I-logged were productful somehow. Mom (6:02:09 PM): hi again - did you find a job since i talked to you last? Mom (6:02:18 PM): ha Lin(6:02:19 PM): uh.. nooo Lin(6:02:25 PM): considering it's spring break and no one is around Mom (6:02:27 PM): bye, jk Mom (6:02:44 PM): btw, you could work off campus. You have a car Mom (6:03:06 PM): it is snooooooooooowiiiinnnng Lin(6:03:09 PM): I know.. I looked into things if it makes you feel better Lin(6:03:15 PM): all of the pay is disgustingly bad though Mom (6:03:23 PM): so what, pay is pay Lin(6:03:27 PM): no it's not Lin(6:03:34 PM): pay isn't worth $6 for an hour Mom (6:03:43 PM): nobody makes $25 per hour - you unfortunately got paid that once, and now will settle for ntohing less Mom (6:04:01 PM): if you do work off campus Mom (6:04:12 PM): please get mel gibson's autograph for me Lin(6:04:49 PM): ha.. sure thing Lin(6:04:58 PM): Aly says I'm the "problem of America's economy" Lin(6:05:12 PM): "people who won't accept a job because they think they're above the pay" Mom (6:05:13 PM): anyway, when you come home for the summer, you will probably get paid minimum wage somewhere Lin(6:05:22 PM): not that she's one to be talking Lin(6:05:34 PM): no way, I refuse Mom (6:05:43 PM): you need a job, for the experience if nothing else Mom (6:05:59 PM): well, you can't come home and sit around. You can't live here if you do. You have to work. Lin(6:06:55 PM): oh ok.. well I'll just be on the streets then, is that what you're saying? Mom (6:07:03 PM): if you wish Lin(6:07:13 PM): ha.. great to know I have such a supportive parent Mom (6:07:15 PM): you need to work and earn a ton of money for italy. Lin(6:07:16 PM): it makes me really WANT to work Lin(6:07:22 PM): I KNOW this Mom (6:07:36 PM): ok. just want you to know what the expectations are. Lin(6:08:30 PM): um, ok.. so is [sister-dearest] working? Mom (6:08:39 PM): yes. Lin(6:08:41 PM): I hear she bought a cell phone with a plan of $40 per month Mom (6:08:53 PM): but you should NOT be comparing yourself to her. You are too old to be doing that. Mom (6:09:03 PM): she is apying for ALL of it. Mom (6:09:11 PM): not that it is any of your business Lin(6:09:15 PM): What are you talking about? I have every right to compare myself if I were working at her age and we're a family Lin(6:09:23 PM): and allocation of money is everybody's problem Mom (6:09:42 PM): nope. you are wrong. you have to come to an understanding, you are older and supposedly wiser Lin(6:10:11 PM): ok, well that's not really and justification of why my reasoning would be "wrong".. but whatever.. Lin(6:10:19 PM): I can be older, wiser, and disagreeing all at one time Mom (6:10:28 PM): ha, that's for sure! Mom (6:10:45 PM): you are too funny... Mom (6:11:01 PM): silly girl. all i am saying is - you will work for food. Lin(6:11:02 PM): oook Lin(6:11:10 PM): oh ok. Lin(6:11:12 PM): that's good.. Mom (6:11:14 PM): ha. gotta goo. what the heck is ook Lin(6:11:20 PM): considering I never eat when I'm home anyway ;D Mom (6:11:24 PM): oh i see Lin(6:11:24 PM): juuust kidding Mom (6:11:35 PM): that's it, you are in sooooooooo much trouble! Lin(6:11:48 PM): uhooh. Mom (6:12:00 PM): btw you are sleeping in the garage with phoebe [my doooggie!] Lin(6:12:02 PM): you might just have to come to Malibu and.. Lin(6:12:11 PM): cool Lin(6:12:14 PM): I love phoebe Lin(6:12:20 PM): at least it'll be warm in there :) [fireplace in the garage -- and my room, the back of the house gets miserably cold sometimes] Mom (6:12:42 PM): she loves you too. we have already told her about the arrangements Mom (6:13:03 PM): or, you could decide to sleep in the big tent in the backyard... Lin(6:13:08 PM): great.. as long as there's a computer in there.. I'm good Mom (6:13:14 PM): we have a good air mattress Lin(6:13:16 PM): there's a big tent in the backyard? Mom (6:13:24 PM): no, but we will get one! Lin(6:13:31 PM): great :) Lin(6:13:44 PM): why's it snowing? that's crazy Mom (6:14:01 PM): well, it is february, and we haven't had ANY snow this year... Mom (6:14:16 PM): we now have about 6-7 inches Lin(6:14:22 PM): hooraay Mom (6:14:22 PM): Uncle B had 3 feet Mom (6:14:26 PM): then it rained, Lin(6:14:28 PM): yuck Mom (6:14:36 PM): and now he has a huge flood in his basement! Lin(6:14:42 PM): oh.. I was thinking about moving to that part of the country after I graduate.. what do you think? Mom (6:14:55 PM): that would be really good. Mom (6:15:00 PM): whatever you want to do is fine Lin(6:15:08 PM): what do you think if I major in psychology? Mom (6:15:12 PM): as long as you can arraing it. Lin(6:15:16 PM): by the way Mom (6:15:22 PM): honey, whatever you want is fine Lin(6:15:30 PM): did I tell you Aunt M invited me to stay with her my entire Christmas break if I want? Lin(6:15:40 PM): or she said "I'm welcome to join them wherever they may be" Mom (6:15:45 PM): yes, she told me about that. I think it is wonderful Lin(6:15:50 PM): me too! Mom (6:16:03 PM): you'll probably do a lot of traveling, like to Denmark and such. Lin(6:16:04 PM): I was thinking of traveling part of the time and then spending some time with them as well Lin(6:16:06 PM): it's a long time Lin(6:16:09 PM): yeah Lin(6:16:13 PM): she has such a wonderful time traveling Mom (6:16:16 PM): you need money to travel. Lin(6:16:24 PM): she's always telling me about the different places she's going Mom (6:16:24 PM): lots of it. Lin(6:16:29 PM): like to Florida for her spring break Lin(6:16:39 PM): just to be "warm"! Lin(6:16:41 PM): I love it. haha Mom (6:16:42 PM): ok, i have to go now. sorry. Lin(6:16:47 PM): alright.. byebye Mom (6:16:49 PM): bye! Mom signed off at 6:16:53 PM. .... good 'ol mom. I had a conversation with her online about a half hour before this, but lost it. Yep. It was about me telling her that I'm not having babies. It was really actually quite a humorous conversation. Aly forces me to watch some disgusting show on TLC called a "baby story" ... no offense to those that just love the thought or visual aspect of childbirth.. but it really actually just terrified me further. As my mom put it "There are much more advanced drugs these days you can take!" (my mom called herself the "Queen of Natual Childbirth" because she didn't take any epidural for all 3 births.. haha.. wooow. And then I said something ridiculous like "sea section".. forget it.. I don't even care about proper terminology when it comes to this) and .. no... the outcome is just not appealing. The women become huge. yuck. They go through painful.. torture.. child birth.. and then out pops a bundle of joyous crying.. to protect, love, care for, and provide for in every aspect until the day you day. No, even when your kids "grow up" does not mean you are free from any of this. And that's not to say I don't think I'm capable of that.. it's just... yeah it's biological.. genetic.. I don't know what I'm saying actually.. just trying to make an excuse as to how I got this attitude that I really don't find kids that cuddly and stuff... I love dogs.. see.. I can love, protect, care for.. etc. etc. haha. uuuh huh. No I can. I just don't want to. There's nothing wrong with that. Too many people out there are having kids (or they already have in their minds.. as far as I'm concerned.. take Aly for example) and they are definitely not prepared enough for them. Some people you can kind of see as parents though. I can definitely see Aly as a parent. Anyway. This is a dead subject I'm already tired of. Variables can change my opinion on this I suppose. I don't know. I took this weird test once.. it involved a pencil and a string (and a kind-of-close-friend-'most-likely-to-succeed'-cohort of mine thinks I'm crazy.. because I tried to perform this test on him one day, and it really was quite hilarious.. I think he thought I had gone mad.) What was I getting at? Oh yes. This test... said I wasn't having kids. It's kind of like a 'reading your palm' test.. really really ridiculous... but this test is particularly different as I have absolutely NO IDEA how it works the way it does. You hang a pencil from a string (a needle with the string pinned into the eraser) over your wrist vein.. completely still.. and then the pencil starts to do crazy things like move above your wrist, and, yes I'm sounding crazy just trying to explain this. No more. Maddy (4:23:09 PM): I'm so sad----and I'm not even kidding---Mr. Rogers died tody--- Lin(4:23:27 PM): aw.. I'm sorry Lin(4:23:30 PM): that was yesterday though Maddy (4:23:40 PM): really? I just read it on yahoo today Lin(4:23:57 PM): *laughs slightly* yeah.. Lin(4:24:03 PM): sorry.. I shouldn't be laughing, but it's just cute Lin(4:24:22 PM): *everyone* keeps telling me that.. Lin(4:24:36 PM): and I'm like, yeah, but actually.. that was yesterday Maddy (4:26:30 PM): its just----kinda wierd I guess---it just didnt seem like he could die LOL Lin(4:30:01 PM): I didn't think he could still possibly be alive.. I dunno :P Lin(4:30:27 PM): he seemed so old when I was just a little girl Maddy (5:07:59 PM): lol I agree Maddy (5:08:03 PM): that is a wierd thought ... ... . yep. Paul (7:17:55 PM): ? Paul (7:18:01 PM): Heh If i had a photo of you. Lin (7:18:11 PM): *grin* just looking over some of your rants Paul (7:18:11 PM): that was really good Lin (7:18:17 PM): hey, I did send you a pic once. Lin (7:18:26 PM): no whiiining. *wink* Paul (7:18:31 PM): yeah i don't have them anymore Paul (7:18:32 PM): =( Paul (7:18:40 PM): so how'd you like that poem? Paul (7:18:42 PM): the newest new one Lin (7:18:43 PM): what happened to them? hm? Paul (7:19:00 PM): they sat in my email box and never got saved Lin (7:19:00 PM): I told you I liked it a lot.. very 'romantic' as usual Lin (7:19:10 PM): tsktsk. ooh well. Lin (7:22:24 PM): aw. I'm in "the cast"! *hugs* That's kind of neat, actually, that you would even consider me.. but thanks :) Paul (7:22:41 PM): hehe Paul (7:22:43 PM): :hugs back: Paul (7:22:51 PM): ah shit the washer is having trouble with my pants Paul (7:22:51 PM): hold on Lin (7:23:05 PM): *laughs slightly* alright. Paul (7:24:12 PM): ah dude Paul (7:24:18 PM): it was already dry when i went to it Paul (7:24:22 PM): all the water faded right through Paul (7:24:25 PM): so i had to add more3 Paul (7:24:30 PM): medium now Lin (7:24:39 PM): yick Lin (7:24:46 PM): I hate laundry, heh, with a passion.. in-fact Lin (7:24:56 PM): once i thought I lost my cell phone in the laundry.. funnny times Lin (7:25:18 PM): I started ripping every article out of the filled-up laundry machine (water included).. and throwing everythingggg on the ground.. Lin (7:25:31 PM): causing a small flood. Lin (7:25:39 PM): And then I realized my cell was still in my purse. Paul (7:25:49 PM): LOL Lin (7:26:04 PM): yeah, I'm a dork. :/ The Cast being one of the links under that weird picture he has up. That picture particularly bugs me for whatever reason. Perhaps because of her hair or her "t-shirt".. or rather, cloth-barely-covering-anything. At any rate... I was really surprised, considering I know how many people Paul talks to and how I've been to this site before and was not listed. (and I have never expected that I would be listed).. and then there I was ... had I not gone looking around the site beyond the poems section, I never would have known because he didn't even bother telling me that I was mentioned there. But. Anyway. Yeah. Caught me by surprise. The "rants" are really kind of funny... in a "Paul" sort of way. Some things just reeeally particularly bug him. It's a little different to me.. because small things can bug me, but I can get over them really quick.. he doesn't. Alright. One last convo. Disclaimer: It really seems like I'm some wild drinker in this next conversation. My voice changes in IMs depending on the person I'm talking to and knowing how well they can interpret me. I was being very very silly in the upcoming convo. Most suggestive things weren't really true at all (i.e. getting completely drunk in Mexico). New info: I've decided I do want to get drunk once. Under particular circumstances. 1) Aly does not drink whatsoever to make sure I don't do anything completely stupid.. remember I don't know what it's like to be drunk so I just need that precaution. 2) The people around me are fairly drunk. (so I'm not out of place) 3) I'm in a fairly random environment. Ok then. Maybe I will go get drunk once in Mexico or something. Or just with a bunch of friends who don't usually drink at all. Al doesn't drink at all. Aly drinks sparingly. Michelle drinks sparingly. Der is practically a regular drunk -- haha.. just kidding Der!.. or maybe not.. but yeah, your "fraternity" and everything.. there's a lot of drinking you have to admit... and others.. anyway.. I talked to Der tonight and he wants to go with me to Mexico or something with my friends.. and he said he wouldn't let me do anything stupid and wouldn't drink at all if I didn't want him to while I did .. but, whatever. This isn't the point. The point is that I want to do this once because I don't understand it at all. When people tell me they got drunk and did such-and-such.. I don't know what to think of it... I usually think.. "getting drunk is just an excuse for what you did".. and it definitely is to an extent.. but I really need to know what exactly 'being drunk' is like. I'm sure it's going to be highly unenjoyable for me.. or I'm sure I'll be a complete idiot.. I hate feeling 'out of control'.. but as long as I have a safety net like Aly.. who I seriously trust.. then I have no problem doing this once. Otherwise I have nothing to say to the person who gets drunk and I don't approve. Why shouldn't I approve? What do I even have to say about my experience as to why I don't approve?.. If this is backwards logic/reasoning, then I'd be interested in knowing why. Psychology is just an idea.. I have no idea what I want to do. I'm thinking psychology with a double degree in computer science. Anyway. Random conversation with Michelle below... Lin(11:32:54 PM): aw I just read your e-mail. thanks so much :) [some tech. talk here which would be weird to follow.. about transferring a file..] Lin(11:38:03 PM): *laughs hysterically* just read your post ;) thanks soo much again Lin(11:38:11 PM): lol.. that means so much that you'd save me over your hubby!! Lin(11:38:12 PM): *wink* Lin(11:38:24 PM): j/p :P but.. yeah.. I'd definitely do the same for you! *hug* Michelle(11:38:36 PM): ::laughs:: cool hehe ::hugs back:: Lin(11:38:47 PM): and everything you said was right on.. about how you do definitely have that special spot in my heart that no one will ever measure up to Michelle(11:38:49 PM): whoa that transfer is gonna take FOREVER...LOL we'll just leave it going all night Michelle(11:39:00 PM): aww.... ::grins:: cool... Lin(11:39:10 PM): I know the distance is so hard and everything, and not nearly the type of friendship we could have if close.. but.. you know.. so much history that no other friend can even compare to Lin(11:39:16 PM): and I'm always thinking of new funny things Michelle(11:39:24 PM): ::grin:: Lin(11:39:30 PM): like when Aly decided to surprise me with some Paula Abdul music the other day *wink* Lin(11:39:42 PM): we WERE practically Paula Abdul, as far as you and I were concerned ;-) Michelle(11:40:02 PM): LOLOL yeah! Michelle(11:40:14 PM): Remember we made up her fake sister Rose so you could be her? Lin(11:40:18 PM): woah, dang, yeah.. hopefully it keeps transferring if I'm idle or something? Lin(11:40:24 PM): lol! Lin(11:40:26 PM): oh yeah! Michelle(11:40:27 PM): yeah I dunno...I think it will.. Lin(11:40:28 PM): "Rose" Michelle(11:40:33 PM): you LOVED that name Lin(11:40:35 PM): why did I even like that name? Lin(11:40:38 PM): I know.. lol Michelle(11:40:40 PM): beats me! LOL Lin(11:40:41 PM): oh myyy Lin(11:40:46 PM): how funny! ;) Michelle(11:40:47 PM): pretty flower I dunno Michelle(11:40:51 PM): hehehe Lin(11:40:52 PM): I guess ;) Lin(11:41:00 PM): I was a perfectionist even back then Lin(11:41:04 PM): *wink* j/p Lin(11:41:07 PM): I don't know what I was thinking Michelle(11:41:39 PM): hehehehe Michelle(11:41:44 PM): ::just laughs thinking about it all:: Lin(11:41:52 PM): lol.. Michelle(11:41:52 PM): you were so bossy as a kid LOLOL Lin(11:41:59 PM): and then Catalina island is right in front of me here Michelle(11:42:01 PM): you were always the leader Lin(11:42:03 PM): so it's a little reminder Michelle(11:42:03 PM): oh yeah! Lin(11:42:06 PM): all of the time, of you :P Michelle(11:42:08 PM): coooool Lin(11:42:10 PM): it's nice :) Michelle(11:42:11 PM): muahaha Lin(11:42:13 PM): lol Michelle(11:42:17 PM): I wanna go there again so bad Lin(11:42:24 PM): yeah, same here.. Michelle(11:42:29 PM): someday... Michelle(11:42:36 PM): when we're' not poor anymore Michelle(11:42:40 PM): heh Lin(11:42:50 PM): *laughs* that's so funny though.. our personalities as little kids and who we are now Michelle(11:42:56 PM): yeah hehe Lin(11:42:56 PM): lol.. yeah Michelle(11:42:59 PM): I was always like serious and stuff Michelle(11:43:07 PM): and had to be like...girly Michelle(11:43:17 PM): I'm not super girly anymore, but I still am sorta Lin(11:43:25 PM): and I was like... risk-taker-lets-walk-on-ice-brilliant-idea! Michelle(11:43:29 PM): LOL yeah!! Lin(11:43:30 PM): :P Michelle(11:43:31 PM): ::cracks up:: Michelle(11:43:39 PM): I was like nervous and scared to do things, but you pushed me to try new things Michelle(11:43:42 PM): that was good for me Lin(11:43:51 PM): until I fell in and, yeah, nearly lost my life or something.. that was retarded of me.. learned a good lesson there Michelle(11:43:53 PM): sometimes we'd fight tho cause you'd pressure me and I'd get mad LOL Michelle(11:43:57 PM): Yeah that was scary Michelle(11:44:00 PM): very scary Lin(11:44:03 PM): lol! Lin(11:44:10 PM): I knoow ;( I'm so sorry Michelle(11:44:16 PM): Hey, you were a kid Lin(11:44:19 PM): but I was just talking to someone the other day about you Michelle(11:44:23 PM): Oh yeah? Hehe Lin(11:44:38 PM): because he was saying how our differences are SO different (and he's an online friend) that we may not really get along in real life Lin(11:45:09 PM): and I just told him.. "well.. consider it this way.. you probably shouldn't assume that because my BEST FRIEND is almost a completely opposite person from who I am" Michelle(11:45:30 PM): LOLOLOL Lin(11:45:34 PM): but yeah.. just that our differences kind of complete each other in the sense that it's the part of us neither of us want to work on Michelle(11:45:41 PM): yeah it's crazy how that works Lin(11:45:41 PM): but you teach me to be more patient.. calm.. etc.. Michelle(11:45:55 PM): LOL Michelle(11:45:57 PM): cool then hehe Michelle(11:46:05 PM): not like I'm always patient and calm myself though Lin(11:46:08 PM): and I'm like... pushing limits.. or something Lin(11:46:23 PM): nono.. but then.. that's good too because we both have that same quality Michelle(11:46:23 PM): yeah, you inspire me a lot to get out and grab life and just...do what I want with it Lin(11:46:37 PM): and having a few common qualities are good because then we can agree and compromise.. etc Lin(11:47:12 PM): but, I dunno, I guess I think generally both our hearts are in the right place.. similar values and stuff.. Lin(11:47:18 PM): so our friendship it just awesome :) Michelle(11:47:26 PM): yeah...exactly Michelle(11:47:39 PM): ::bounces happily:: Michelle(11:47:41 PM): ::snickers:: Michelle(11:47:50 PM): I haven't been this happy in a while.. Lin(11:47:51 PM): heehee :) Michelle(11:47:54 PM): it feels really good Lin(11:48:16 PM): yeah, I've been feeling really down lately.. but kind of coming back up now that I realize what has been holding me down Lin(11:48:26 PM): I've been wanting to supress all of the things that TRULY make me happy Lin(11:48:36 PM): like.. "it's not ok to take the free-time to do this this this and that.." ... Lin(11:49:17 PM): whereas before I've ALWAYS been working and felt like I should continue doing that.. but now I just feel like.. "live life! do stuff! work partially but do things that make you truly happy!" Lin(11:49:24 PM): and unfortunately my current classes don't do that for me Lin(11:49:27 PM): so I have to be careful Michelle(11:49:30 PM): ::nods:: Lin(11:49:40 PM): but at least I can admit to myself now that I know what it is.. and that's the first step of course Lin(11:49:46 PM): I really am considering psychology actually Michelle(11:49:48 PM): yeah...that's why I couldn't ever commit to school and stuff...cause it wasn't making me happy...now though, the timing is right and hopefully it will Michelle(11:49:51 PM): really? cool!! Lin(11:50:21 PM): yeah.. what do you think about that for me? Lin(11:50:26 PM): I'm trying to get a lot of opinions Michelle(11:51:01 PM): I think that would be perfect...you showed a huge interest when you took that one class... Michelle(11:51:04 PM): was that in high school? Michelle(11:51:13 PM): and you have a very good analytical mind Lin(11:51:18 PM): that's true. Michelle(11:51:19 PM): you like to help people and understand them Lin(11:51:24 PM): exactly. Michelle(11:51:28 PM): you've been wanting to help people with problems for a long time Lin(11:51:32 PM): I hate how everyone thinks it's a cop-out degree though Michelle(11:51:32 PM): so it sounds perfect Michelle(11:51:37 PM): uh... Michelle(11:51:39 PM): it's not Michelle(11:51:51 PM): dude...all the females in my famile are doctors in psychology...and they make good ass money Lin(11:51:53 PM): well, of course not.. from your perspective especially since your mom Michelle(11:51:56 PM): hehe yeah Lin(11:51:59 PM): yeah.. Lin(11:52:01 PM): lol Michelle(11:52:02 PM): my mom, my aunt, d Michelle(11:52:08 PM): D never practiced though Lin(11:52:20 PM): are you serious? I always kind of remember your mom struggling.. but maybe that's just because Flag (city we lived in) rips people off Michelle(11:52:24 PM): and I think she decided to not write her doctorate, so she almost made it to a doctorate degree but stopped Lin(11:52:28 PM): but then.. Michelle(11:52:28 PM): yeah flag rips peopel off... Lin(11:52:35 PM): actually.. you guys did get by pretty good Lin(11:52:42 PM): considering you were practically supporting 2 children Michelle(11:52:43 PM): my aunt...Pen yanno...works in a prison LOL in San Francisco and she makes well over $50k a year Lin(11:52:44 PM): lol.. Michelle(11:52:48 PM): so I maen, not six figures Michelle(11:52:51 PM): but damn good Lin(11:52:54 PM): I'm sorrry.. looking back.. I'm just like.. Lin(11:52:58 PM): your mom was sooooo nice. Michelle(11:53:03 PM): well my mom was also a single mom Michelle(11:53:06 PM): so that makes it even worse Michelle(11:53:10 PM): but she made 35k a year Michelle(11:53:20 PM): if you go into private practice you can get mega bucks Lin(11:53:28 PM): everyone was... gosh.. that means so much to me.. the fact that they would allow me to come with you guys on vacations and stuff.. and that really made our friendship wonderful Michelle(11:53:28 PM): get like $200 an hour Lin(11:53:39 PM): really? that's what I want to do too Michelle(11:53:41 PM): Oh yeah ::laughs:: yeah...I was lucky that my parents/d were willing to do that Lin(11:53:43 PM): I want my own practice Lin(11:53:51 PM): but where would I practice? Malibu??? YEAH! Lin(11:53:52 PM): lol Michelle(11:53:52 PM): I always begged them...I think cause I didn't have any siblings...they felt they needed to do that for me Lin(11:53:55 PM): that was easy. Michelle(11:54:02 PM): LOL! Yeah!! practice in malibu!!! Michelle(11:54:08 PM): OMG you could like..council movie stars! LOLOL Lin(11:54:11 PM): *nod* yeah.. well.. still very generous of them :) Lin(11:54:13 PM): lol Michelle(11:54:13 PM): er...counsel Lin(11:54:16 PM): that would be great Michelle(11:54:18 PM): or whatever... Lin(11:54:23 PM): I wonder how you get that type of position? Michelle(11:54:23 PM): I can't ever figure out which word to use Lin(11:54:38 PM): counsil? I don't know Michelle(11:54:41 PM): Probably word of mouth...you gotta market yourself when you're doing any kind of self employment...I sure as hell know that Michelle(11:54:49 PM): well..they call it counseling so I think it's counsel Michelle(11:54:55 PM): I think council is a noun, not a verb Michelle(11:55:02 PM): like...the council has adjourned Michelle(11:55:11 PM): ::rambling:: Lin(11:55:19 PM): haha Lin(11:55:20 PM): alright Lin(11:55:25 PM): you should go into journalism! Lin(11:55:32 PM): yeeah! just playing.. Lin(11:55:37 PM): do what you really want to do of course :) Lin(11:55:42 PM): I just think you'd find that stimulating Michelle(11:55:52 PM): ::grin:: yeah I thought abuot it Lin(11:56:10 PM): my aunt got a degree in that at stanford Lin(11:56:12 PM): she loves it Michelle(11:56:14 PM): my problem is that I wanna be really the top of what I do... Lin(11:56:19 PM): but doesn't make very good money :/ Michelle(11:56:24 PM): I want to be famous really, to be honest...and I don't really know why...but I've always wanted that Michelle(11:56:34 PM): maybe because I just always want attention... Michelle(11:56:40 PM): like...I love to perform in front of crowds... Michelle(11:57:25 PM): man...your aunt sounds so cool Michelle(11:57:31 PM): by all the things I've read about her in your blog and stuff Lin(11:57:34 PM): haha.. uhm.. which one? Lin(11:57:39 PM): that one isn't the 'cool one'.. actually :P Lin(11:57:46 PM): that one went to Brown Michelle(11:57:49 PM): ohh okay Lin(11:57:52 PM): and she's sooo similar to myself that we fight a lot Michelle(11:57:57 PM): the one who is always advising you on stuff though... Michelle(11:58:02 PM): LOL Lin(11:58:08 PM): drinking time!! Lin(11:58:10 PM): lol.. sorry Michelle(11:58:13 PM): ::cracks up:: Michelle(11:58:15 PM): whaaaaat? Lin(11:58:15 PM): my roomate cracks me up Michelle(11:58:19 PM): LOL! Lin(11:58:19 PM): lol.. omg Lin(11:58:29 PM): this is soooo funny Lin(11:58:36 PM): she just JUMPED up.. and she was like.. Lin(11:59:00 PM): "what time is it?? 12!" And we said something random during the day that we were going to get drunk at 12 Michelle(11:59:12 PM): LOL! Lin(11:59:18 PM): since I've never been drunk.. and I REALLY want to get drunk for the experience. Michelle(11:59:23 PM): ::nods:: Michelle(11:59:28 PM): I've only been buzzed...I hated it Lin(11:59:29 PM): and I thought it would be so funny-pathetic Michelle(11:59:36 PM): depends on the kind of alcohol tho... Lin(11:59:43 PM): because it's spring break and we're getting liquored up in our room alone Michelle(11:59:45 PM): buzzed on malt liquor isn't bad... Lin(11:59:47 PM): sooo funny Michelle(11:59:49 PM): sweet! Michelle(11:59:49 PM): hehe Lin(11:59:50 PM): lol Michelle(12:00:02 AM): bad girl...underage drinker Lin(12:00:06 AM): we never drink.. her and I.. Lin(12:00:07 AM): lol Michelle(12:00:10 AM): LOLOL Lin(12:00:11 AM): no I neeever drink Michelle(12:00:15 AM): Oh really? wow Lin(12:00:16 AM): seriously.. this is going to be bad.. but I am Michelle(12:00:37 AM): Well, I don't think I had my first real drink until last year anyway Lin(12:00:37 AM): because my good friend Al heard I wanted to get drunk and he brought Aly and I back two beers to help us on our way.. so that's all I have Michelle(12:00:46 AM): ew...beer is AWFUL Lin(12:00:47 AM): mm.. it's pretty good Michelle(12:00:50 AM): iccckkkk Lin(12:01:05 AM): it's not actually beer Michelle(12:01:11 AM): what is it? Lin(12:01:14 AM): it's something kind of.. fruity Lin(12:01:28 AM): Aly: "this is waay better than beer" Michelle(12:01:51 AM): Errr....fruity beer?? ::cracks up:: Michelle(12:01:55 AM): Wine cooler maybe? Lin(12:01:59 AM): nope :P Michelle(12:02:01 AM): wine coolers are sweet as ALL hell Lin(12:02:06 AM): SKYY Michelle(12:02:06 AM): weird...does it have a name? Michelle(12:02:08 AM): OH!!! Michelle(12:02:09 AM): OMG Michelle(12:02:11 AM): that's my FAV Michelle(12:02:17 AM): it's SUPER DUPER sweet though Lin(12:02:22 AM): me: "Uhhh.. I probably shouldn't be on the top bunk getting liquored up" Michelle(12:02:23 AM): I can only stand so much of it Michelle(12:02:27 AM): LOLOL Michelle(12:02:42 AM): one bottle won't do anything to ya...well I dunno how you react, but it's not a lot of alcohol Lin(12:02:48 AM): should I be on the top bunk? lol.. I've never drank this before Michelle(12:02:50 AM): ::cracks up:: Lin(12:02:53 AM): lol Michelle(12:02:57 AM): you won't get tipsy at all Lin(12:02:59 AM): well I've never drank an entire beer EVER Lin(12:03:04 AM): alright then Lin(12:03:07 AM): how can I get tipsy Lin(12:03:11 AM): I feel kind of tipsy.. Lin(12:03:15 AM): it's all in the mind I think Lin(12:03:16 AM): hahaha Michelle(12:03:20 AM): yeah, but the first time I had an entire bottle...it was Zima...and I just got warm and a little bit more talkative Michelle(12:03:28 AM): but not much Lin(12:03:39 AM): yeah.. same here.. Michelle(12:03:42 AM): and the most I've had was 3 shots of vodka...and that made me dizzy man..that sucked...that's hard liquor Lin(12:03:45 AM): I just get warm too Lin(12:03:55 AM): dang.. Lin(12:04:00 AM): when you visit we're going to Mexico baby!! Lin(12:04:01 AM): lol Michelle(12:04:02 AM): malt liquor is light and nice Michelle(12:04:04 AM): YEAH!!!! Lin(12:04:05 AM): Mexico is so great for drinking Michelle(12:04:06 AM): woo hoo! Lin(12:04:09 AM): Tijuana here we come! Michelle(12:04:10 AM): Yeah I bet! Michelle(12:04:12 AM): OLOL Lin(12:04:14 AM): lolol Michelle(12:04:17 AM): I don't really ever wanna get drunk tho Michelle(12:04:26 AM): I don't like being dizzy Lin(12:04:28 AM): really? why not? Lin(12:04:34 AM): it's like being dizzy? Michelle(12:04:47 AM): well yeah...you kinda lose your balance Michelle(12:04:53 AM): you've seen drunk sstagering around Michelle(12:05:37 AM): The other thing is that it makes me nervous that I'll get out of control...so instead of loosening up, I actually just get really paranoid Lin(12:05:39 AM): yeah I guess Lin(12:05:50 AM): yeah, same here, but I've just decided I HAVE to do this Michelle(12:05:53 AM): but I've never been falling over drunk, just dizzy drunk...so that's all the experience I've had Michelle(12:06:01 AM): LOL you wanna get puke your guts out drunk? Lin(12:06:05 AM): nooo Lin(12:06:09 AM): just crazy-fun drunk Michelle(12:06:12 AM): ::nods:: Michelle(12:06:27 AM): well mabye around you I can loosen up...cause I trust you Lin(12:07:05 AM): hehe.. exactly.. if I go, Aly is coming too because she'll most definitely take care of me Michelle(12:07:19 AM): ::nodnod:: good Michelle(12:10:06 AM): man I can't wait to go down there and see you Lin(12:10:26 AM): yeah you definitely have to come visit me!! Michelle(12:10:39 AM): hell yeah Michelle(12:12:05 AM): ugh..man I'm gonna have my hands full working as a baby sitter at my dad's place... Michelle(12:12:15 AM): I hope that goes okay...I really don't wanna have to move again.. Michelle(12:12:21 AM): I'm so damned sick of it Lin(12:12:23 AM): yeah, definitely.. hopefully you can get some homework done though Michelle(12:12:25 AM): it's fuckin' stressful Michelle(12:12:33 AM): yeah, I'm sure I will be able to ..LOL I better be able to! Lin(12:13:48 AM): hey I might put some of our convo. in my journal.. is that ok with you? Michelle(12:13:57 AM): sure thing Lin(12:18:47 AM): I just did the BEST burp Lin(12:18:48 AM): lol Michelle(12:18:56 AM): ::dies laughing:: Michelle(12:19:14 AM): I SUCK at burping Michelle(12:19:23 AM): mine are usually quiet or silent Michelle(12:19:38 AM): I guess cuase I don't force them out and I don't use my voice Michelle(12:20:05 AM): why THE HELL are we talking about burps? ::laughs!:: Michelle(12:20:31 AM): we went from this deep convo about friendship to burps... check us out... we rule! hehe Lin(12:21:31 AM): lol blahdeda... I'm ... going.. tooooooo.. beeeeeeeeeeed. g'night. . . . babbled Lin |
