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Saturday, December 28, 2002 This is what makes me happy. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Here is your horoscope for Saturday, December 28: Obviously it's still Aquarius's gift-giving season. True sentiment draws strangers closer together. You're still far from a final or permanent decision, but the moment is wonderful anyway. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Helping 'strangers' realize that I truely care for them. You can be my closest friend in person or someone I have never met in my life, but I almost care for everyone equally. This is dangerous, to make absolute statements such as "caring for everyone" equally, but when I think about it again, I arrive at the same absolute statement as a truth in my life. When I'm honest with myself and reasoning (and I think this is probably the same way with everyone), the only reason I would probably really "care" -more- would be for almost a selfish reason. Selfish in such the way that if someone very close and respected by me would be hurt or killed, I would most likely care more than a random person off the streets due to the fact that I hold many memories with that person and it hurts to realize that further memories by that person could have been taken away (if they were harmed) or actually were taken away (if they died). True, someone could argue that we also mourn for the reason that we are sad that the person who died did not have the chance to "live their life to the fullest," but who are we to say that they have not? Only because they did not have the chance to live longer in the world (which is more often than not an unhappy place to be a part of), I believe they most likely all move on to something far more glorious than this world... whether this be heaven or simply a state of peace. Where am I going with this then? I care for everyone equally. When it comes right down to the definition of caring - beyond a selfish caring, but "true sentiment" - I care equally. (if anyone cares to argue why this is not good logic.. or probably not the truth.. then I'd be interested to receive opinions either by e-mail or comments of reasoning.. it seems like this could not possibly be true, but when I really think about it.. it's amazing how it is.. true sentiment versus selfish reasons of caring.. unfortunately "selfish" has a negative connotation, but oh well.. look up the definition) How does this "horoscope" relate to everything I am trying to pull together here... well.. I received an e-mail from someone who I have been in contact with by e-mail. This person has become as much a part of my concerns now as any other person in my life. The fact that he made the effort to contact me, from that moment he became a part of my thoughts and concerns. He often e-mails asking for my opinion/advice, and this is actually my joy.. my happiness.. is helping others - especially those who feel they may have no one else to go to - realize that I am someone who honestly cares for them and wants to help them in any way that I can. While this could be looked at for selfish reasons - my happiness - at the same time, I think it's ok to be selfish in this respect.. I am happy by helping others understand their situations/personal-self better.. I am happy when others can (hopefully) be happier as a result of my time. I see my time as extremely valuable. I think everyone should see their time this way. Because my time is valuable, when my time goes toward my passion - helping others in whatever way I can - this makes me happy. Perhaps I helped this friend by giving him the gift of my time. I received his e-mail thanking me for some of the words I wrote to him which seemingly helped him see himself in the light I had hoped he would eventually come to understand.. and I believe he did... while I don't think everything in life is now "solved" for him, he at least accepted perspectives of mine which he took into his memory. It's like people who have read the bible and have not.. and those who deny God. There is a fine distinction between people who know what is written in the bible and still choose to deny God, whereas those who deny God because they have never read the bible. In this particular situation, he may have not read the exact words I wrote to him before.. but now he has the choice to deny or accept these words. Of course I am happy that he seems to have chosen to take my words to heart, because the words came directly from my heart and every word I write I honestly mean (even though I feel sometimes what I write is, what I call "scatter-brained", but it's still honest...I can only *hope* my words are not misinterpreted.. a fear of mine, being misinterpreted.. because I care greatly about everything I write.) The moment I read his e-mail was wonderful. And I read this horoscope shortly after and thought it was convenient to tie my thoughts together. . . . babbled Lin |
