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Saturday, December 07, 2002 I have a problem. I absolutely cannot work anymore unless I am working at, honestly, the most extreme last-minute possible time to do my work. I still have to: Read/Study/Analyze 9-10 weeks worth of religion material by tuesday.. and let me just say now, that in itself is the biggest nightmare. Tuesday I will have two tests in religion: one of which is the final. To put this into perspective, there are only 4 tests in this class.. I have not taken the 3rd one yet, but everyone who did (and they studied) pretty-much failed it. I have only studied a very miniscule amount of the material. Write my final term paper for hist: due tuesday . Perspective: I have not started on my paper, I don't have a very strong thesis in-mind, no research has been done, and there are only 4 written test/assignments in this class. This class is the one I am most worried about. This is the 4th test. Study like crazy for my spe. final. Perspective: I received the highest grade on the mid-term, speeches have been B+/A- lately (miraculously.. considering I improvise/wing-it every time I get up to do a speech.. after preparing the necessary outlines only a couple hours in advance for it) Read 2 books: Siddhartha and The Road Less Traveled by Thursday.. both of which will be on my lib. final. Study for my lib final, aside from reading these books. To put this workload into perspective: I have only read The Road Less Traveled half-way through, have not read any of Siddhartha, and have not studied at all for lib. in general. ---- Can I get through this by working at the most extreme possible last-minute and still manage to do well in the meantime? ... .. patterns in my academic history would say: yes. It's not very good though, working my academics the way I do. When I do decide to finally begin working, I am usually in high-strung-stress-mode. I remember studying for a PE exam a week ago.. 1 hour before the test, memorizing 4 weeks worth of health-related terms, statistics, diagrams, and important facts. One of my suitemates came out to ask me if I was just beginning to study for the test.. which of course, yes, I was. My same suitemate asked me a week later how I did. 104/115. In which she replied: "I hate you.. how can you do that with studying only an hour?" I don't know. And, updating the post on 11/12... I was desperately working to finish a huge rhetorical analysis term paper which I had to have done at 12 p.m. that day.. and I had started working on it at 5 in the morning. I received my grade on that yesterday.. 112/120 ... I only missed 8 points.. and I never had the chance to read over what I wrote because I was in such a rush to have it printed and such... when I read over it later, it sounded actually very-well written.. haha.. I must write best when I'm delusionally writing at the early hours of the morning. Wooo!! I can't get too confident about all of this though. Heh, and I honestly shouldn't work the way I do, but.... I get by... and I haven't decided if just "getting by" is the best way to go so that I can still have a social life and such.. out . . . babbled Lin |
