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Tuesday, August 06, 2002 while I was out tonight.. - A friend whom I haven't seen for a while honked at me while I was walking into the mall (I was going to return something :P my method of shopping: buy.. decide I shouldn't have bought it because I can't afford it.. return) .. we caught up and stuff.. wished him luck at the college he's going to.. Every time I go out I'm reminded why I'm so happy to be moving away. Dooon't get me wrong.... I love seeing people I haven't seen for a little while, but the problem is, I can *never* get away in this town. Every where I go there is someone who knows me, sure that's kind of nice up to a point.. but it can get really annoying. I want to start over.. some things which were so fake about high school I want to get away from. *shrug* I saw this girl working at the mall today (actually, she saw me..because I probably wouldn't have bothered talking to her) .. she was part of the popular-clique at my school.. I had my great group of friends, but then there were my 'friends' - who knew me pretty well, but I didn't hang out with them ever after school (though I was invited to on several occasions) because I didn't agree with their lifestyle. Heh, plus, well everyone knows.. that *type* of group where everyone looks perfect.. yuck. Anyway.. jumping all over the place again with my ideas.... this girl, part of that group, greets me "Liiiin!" ... actually gives me a hug?.. acts like she's all interested to see me. Ugh, ok, maybe she did have good intentions and it's only me who has issues with people... heh.. but I know the way these type of girls/guys are to people who they don't 'approve' of.. and it makes me sick. I know, that's slightly hypocritical, me saying I don't like them because they don't truly accept a lot of people (whereas I'm obviously kind of showing I don't accept them for their lack of acceptance).. but it just seems different with the way I am versus the way they are. It's like they're the type of people who route for the team who has been winning all season, whereas I want the underdogs to win. Ok, maybe that's a bad example which I didn't tie back to the main idea.. but I know what I'm trying to say.. I only hope it doesn't offend anyone. *shrug* Any-way. - Another guy at the mall asked where I was going to college.. "local1?.. local2?..local3?" (state colleges that I'll keep unnamed for privacy reasons?).. heh.. and then I replied.. "um, actually I'm going to Pepperdine.." .. and all he said was "oh.".. until I went to go pay for something and he shouted to his coworker - "she made me feel stupid.. she's going to Pepperdine.." .. his friend said "oh yeah? I toured that campus.. decided I didn't fit in because everyone was driving around with their BMWs.. Mercedes... etc.." my reply: "oh.. yeah, I'm kinda worried about that.. I'm going to be the only poor 'on-a-budget' college student there.." ugh. Another reason why I'm reminded I'm happy to be leaving. Heh.. once I'm in college no one will care because we will all be going there.. I just don't like it how people equate Pepperdine to be some huge deal. Yes, I'm pretty lucky, and very blessed, to be going there.. heh, but in all honesty.. I think a lot of colleges.. even the locals.. are great. *shrug* - I almost ran over two people walking across the crosswalk (heh.. it scared me pretty bad) - I did drive my car right past signs which said "construction" almost into a ditch. heh, the other cars behind me, originally, took the correct turn and flew by me laughing their heads off I'm sure. *grin* to tell you the truth.. I was laughing too. Heh. My car headlights aren't bright enough for me at night - I have tried explaining this to my dad, but he says they simply "need to be cleaned". Anyway. Unfortunately I took the way home where massive construction has been occurring over the past month. I knew, before I took the turn, that I didn't have a clue which direction to turn my car to stay on the detoured road.. but.. that wasn't going to stop me.. and I had no choice to go straight even if I wanted to. I took the turn, and then it happened - I saw three signs telling me to "keep out" as I drove right past them... ha.. right into the construction area. I'm lucky nothing major was going on there, like a huge hole (that was only a tiny ways away until I hit it) because all of the cars behind me obviously knew the direction to take, while I drove off into la-la-land. I felt like such a dork. I am a dork. . . . babbled Lin |
