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Sunday, August 04, 2002 it's kind of weird to me how some of my best memories are online. Years back, I used to go to a private chat room on aol called "help". Heh, I have no idea what brought me there, but I know that I was one of the 'original founders' (haha.. I'll pretend like I kind of "owned" that room ;) ..with others) of that private chat room. In this chat we would try to assist people with personal problems and/or computer problems... or we would be unfairly harsh toward the newbies/"3l1t3"/and others who tried to dominate the room. ;) I still take great pride in the fact that I didn't join the 'groupies' who tried to put together this "elite (not 3l1t3.. there's a difference) helping group".. instead, I stood apart from the group and demanded that I should be allowed to help others without having to be a part of a group, and that that's how it should be for everyone. Of course the group(s) had some major problems because there was never anyone dependable enough to organize a truly elite group without the intentions of doing it for popularity/growth (and why I wouldn't join). Heh, anyway, I'm getting completely off of my original intentions in why I wanted to post about this. I really had a great time in the private chat room - chats that are unforgettable - hilarious, sad, intense.. personal. I know that some/most (...all?..woah.. now that I think of it) of my greatest online friends were discovered through this chat room. I don't know what it is, but something about the people I met in that chat room, and shared conversation with, they have stuck by me since the years that chat room came to an end. It's like having friends who gathered in a similar community at one time, and then we all went our separate ways, but still we probably keep in contact with some people we met and can reflect back on everything - "back in the days.." .. if I think about it really in depth, all of the people I still enjoy talking to are those who usually stood apart from the 'grouping' thing with me.. some joined sometimes, but then they would backout of it quickly when they 'saw the light' ;D . I hope I've made a difference in some people's lives through it, because those were always my intentions. Not to be a part of any group to help, but to be there solely to help. Heh, and I honestly think I have.. which makes me happy. People who I don't remember, but who I've helped or had a good/memorable conversation with, will still contact me afters years/moooonths of not talking with them.. just to say 'hello'.. check up on me... good things like that.. and I love it when people care enough to do that. This all coming up now because I had a 'contact' today from someone who I don't exactly remember, but he met me through the 'help' chat, and he remembered me! :) hee.. supposedly he hasn't been online for a while, but he signed onto aim again recently and my screen name "just popped into [his] head.." B [5:52 PM]: lin :) B [5:52 PM]: -steve remember me? Linearb r e a k [5:53 PM]: hmm.. steve... haha... your sn looks familiar Linearb r e a k [5:53 PM]: where would I know you from again? B [5:53 PM]: help? B [5:53 PM]: pr B [5:53 PM]: umm Linearb r e a k [5:53 PM]: ahhh.. yes.. hiya :) B [5:53 PM]: how ya been? (etc.. insert catching-up-chat-here..) B [6:12 PM]: yeah I've been inactive and when i got AIM your SN just popped in my head ;) ---- anyway... thanks for thinking of me, Steve :) .. heh, sometimes things feel so lonely like no one considers me and I'm trying to lookout for everyone.. doing my best at least, but then when I get feedback..to know that I at least play a small role in people's lives and not just "that girl" who people think of occasionally for a while after meeting, and then forget.. at least that people are considerate.. it helps. *shrug* that's all. . . . babbled Lin |
