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OrientedDis.. Disoriented. |
Thursday, July 04, 2002 before anything about orientation.. I'd just like to take this moment to express how extremely pissed I am about losing half of my CDs on the flight back from my orientation at Pepperdine University in Malibu, CA. Heh. It would have been better if I lost all of them on the way to orientation... because.. I usually do inevitably lose something on a trip (maybe that's why I hate travelling..), and I was thinking to myself on the way back home that I was glad I had made it through the trip without losing anything. Well. Maybe it was the drunk sitting next to me on the flight which distracted me from putting my "Mainly-Favorite-CDs-Case" back into my backpack (or my pre-occupation with deciding he was going to become drunk.. I always manage to get placed next to alcoholics on flights..), or maybe it was that blasted radiating pink sunset which was setting over the ocean and clouds when our flight was taking off which distracted me from reminding myself to put my CD case back (I must have sat looking out the window at the sunset for at least 15 minutes.. thinking how amazing it was that an aircraft had me in the air.. shipping me back home.. ready to fall at any minute should anything go wrong ;x - but I tried not to think about that so much.) It's unfortunate that I decided to arrange my CDs into two separate cases based upon which CDs I listened to the most and were my favorites - that group all going into one case - that case being the one which I left behind. It's unfortunate that my current-favorite CD - Dashboard Confessional - had just been removed from my portable CD-Player and been replaced with a crappy CD which I could have burned again back at home (all of the songs still being on my computer). *SIGH* It's unfortunate that the only CDs I've actually bought in-full-price were in that case. It's unfortunate that I now have to debate whether or not to ask Craig if he can burn the two CDs that he did for me - Dashboard & Dave Mathew's Band - and see if he can send them again.. I'm not sure if I will, but maybe I will.. considering those are two CDs I really love. And the one Derek (friend from school) lent to me so I couly copy it (probably won't ask again :/ .. )_... and the CDs I burned by Derek's (friend online) recommendations... some of the songs deleted off my harddrive, but then again, they were favorites so I kept a lot of those songs saved. UGH. Oh well. The craziest things come out of my mouth when I'm upset. Things that I must really think, but surprise me a little when I say them. My mom was pissed at me because I was slightly (slightly.. ahha) distraught when I realized all of my CDs were back on flight 561.. probably headed off to New Orleans (I think that was the connecting flight) and I was still in the city of the airport, but too far away to go back, and it was about 11 p.m. and we had a 2 1/2 hr. drive home (and both my mother and I had work in the morning). ... I was really upset and my mom forced me to get in the car so we could drive home, and I was crying.. etc. etc.. she tells me.. "they're only CDs!" ... and I blurted out: "MUSIC IS NOT JUST "CDS"!! MUSIC IS LIKE POETRY!! YOU CAN'T JUST REPLACE ANY POETRY!" .... and then she didn't say anything.. I stopped crying... turned my head into a corner of the car.... .. wondered if what I had said was retarded.... thought about it, and then decided that what I had said was kind of a cool perspective to look at music as, heh, I hadn't really thought of music that way before - or obviously I had. . . . babbled Lin |
