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Friday, March 22, 2002 frickin' aced that exam. *grin* yeah, that I took for my AP Gov. class *shrug* .. actually, I don't know yet, but I have a good feeling about this one. I was pretty frightened by my exam score from last week, and so I thought I'd try harder this week. ha. I hope I did better. How small is my school? Small enough to where a very small RUMOR gets back to me from the oddest people. I guess someone was talking about how I was "freaking out" about my exam from last week because I *GASP* Requested that I receive 2 extra pts. on my test due to a completely legitimate answer that I filled on the m/c test. That was literally *IT* (it wasn't even a big deal to me, not the pts., I just wanted the teacher to recognize an answer of a m/c question as logical and correct), but then THAT gets turned into "'me' FREAKING OUT over a test".. I was completely normal and calm when asking about the question.. how does something that stupid and small get spread across the school? Because *Oh GASP* it's me? Is it just me who has STUPID rumors like this? I realize people are some-what competetive, maybe, but why spread rumors which make me sound like I'm PANICKING about something? The thing is, it COULD be believable because, well look at this post for example, when I am upset about something I kind of go off.. heh.. but I wasn't at all in that class. *shrug* oh well. Oh.. and the time everyone was angry at me because a rumor got around that I was *GASP* "Writing down that I had done 5 THOUSAND hours of community service" for a scholarship!! .. lol, I have to admit that definitely was one of the funniest things I've been accused of, and really put into perspective how much people are watching me.. just waiting to take a bite at something I mess-up at.. heh, but the whole "5 thousand" hours thing was a complete lie from someone anyway.. why the HECK would I write down something inaccurate like that, and then get caught when a scholarship committee wants to confirm my hours with the people whom phone numbers I supplied on the scholarship as contacts *to confirm* my hours... I'm not that stupid, and I wouldn't lie in the first place... 5 - 7 people must have confronted me that day asking if what they had heard was true.. I swear.. this is why I have to get far from everyone and go out of state for college, I'm so sick and tired of feeling like I'm under a huge spotlight where someone is just waiting for an opportunity to expose some "fault" (even if completely false/illegitimate) and then tear down everything I've worked so hard for - almost like "my world", but I don't want it to sound that way. Heh, my status in things is not "my world", but probably moreso my "world" is the people I interact with (esp. friends) and the strong relationships I form as a result - I'd rather die knowing I've had meaningful relationships with friends/family/etc.. then to die as 'someone important' in the eyes of everyone, but nothing special to anyone. . . . babbled Lin |
