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Friday, March 08, 2002 forgot to post I just realized I saved this recently, but blogger was down and I never posted it.. heh, looking back on it I wouldn't post it now.. but still it's something I was feeling at one point.. or thinking.. bleh.. anyway.. so I should post it because it would've been posted anyway had blogger not been down. get it? hehe. I knew you would understand. :) (why the heck do I speak in this as if I'm talking to someone?.. like anyone really read this?.. uh.. no I don't think so?.. but.. I can still pretend ;D) ---- 03/07 ?.. When you call my name it's like a little prayer.. I'm down on my knees.. something something.. you know I take you there.. I hear your voice.. it's like an angel sighing.. I have no choice.. I hear your voice.. lol, oy, madonna on the radio. Have to admit her songs are kinda catchy though. I was heading into my school for the NHS meeting today when I was stopped by someone. Some idiot who wants to tell me how to run NHS. Ugh, ok, "idiot" is a little harsh. But seriously! This one guy always does this to me! "YOU'RE the President of NHS.. shouldn't YOU be arranging the service projects?.. I can't remember the last time there was a service project! That's YOUR Job as President to have us doing stuff like that.." .. well, I could make this extreeeemely long because I didn't hesitate to put him in his place right there in the hall for about 15 minutes (I got to school earlier than I thought I would).. hehe.. but in the end he was saying "ok, well, yeah you're right". I told him he didn't need to tell me how to run things because I've been to many leadership classes/seminars and that I believe it's my job to be working with leaders among me.. it's not my job to drag people through mud to get them to do service projects and to arrange ALL of the service projects by myself. Heh, as a club, which is specifically recognized for everyone being quality leaders in their school - academics, sports, etc. - it is all of our jobs, as members, to work together to do the things. I explained to him that it is my job to make sure things are orderly and correct according to NHS policy/rules. Then I used the example of the United States President - it's not his job to do everything, but congress and other branches do a huge part too.. it is everyone's job to work together to make things happen.. but the President's job is specifically to make sure things are just and orderly. lol, and then a teacher walked by and I used her as an example.. it was quite crazy.. 'cause then she got all riled up in the conversation too.. (recently the band didn't make it past regionals to state competition..so I thought I would make use of this fact..).. and I said.. "there's only so much this teacher can do for the band! Afterawhile it's up to each member of the band to do their part.. i.e. practice their instruments." ... heh, anyway, this whole thing is still on my mind because it made me angry how stupid he was being.. and how he just seemed to want to fight, and he has always challenged me as to "what authority" I have as President of the club.. in a demeaning way. *shrug* And he commented to me that - "Well I'm(him speaking) President of many clubs Thank-You-Very-Much, and I'm always the one to give the group members community service ideas! - That's my job as a leader!" Heh.. and then I just replied.. "Well then you are a dictator type of a leader! I'm sorry, but your definition of leadership is different from mine! I believe that it is my role to have others work with me on the same level as a leader, and that me, being the president, is to make sure everyone has the opportunity to be heard.. order..etc.."..I'm just repeating myself now. anyway.. I don't think he'll be arguing with me about what I do as president in NHS ever again. :) :) hehehehe. It was great. It felt great to be so confident about what I was saying and to feel like I was standing up for a passionate belief of mine - one in which he would see the light! lol. ok.. so I'm a little overboard there... that's all. Maybe I should join Speech & Debate! Yeah! heehee.. nah, 'cause he's in it.. maybe that's why he's always trying to argue with me? A little late for speech and debate anyway. Ooo! The best song just came on :) Goo Goo Dolls - Name .. *** hm... just reminded me of something.. it was really sweet, a long time ago. *sigh* Tired of these thoughts though.. I just want to get away from everyone.. sometimes everyone online.. I don't know.. maybe that's not entirely true.. I enjoy talking to most of my friends online.. though life, in general, is just very dull and annoying... sometimes it doesn't seem like it is, but then, yes, it always has been. ..Der. gave me some pics today.. he looks really cute in one of them ;) heh, and it's been ages since I've given him pics.. so.. yeah.. I guess the marriage beween us is back on now. lol.. completely kidding of course, somewhere years back he decided he was going to marry me? ha.. but he's a pimp and denies it. *grin* God I hope he doesn't read this ever. ;x He thinks I should just take a little trip to see one of my favorite groups/artists in concert on Friday with him.. and offered to buy my ticket? If it were realistic that would be really neat. Heh. I drive to California on Friday to see colleges/universities.. etc.. sucks. *yawn* night. *** I think about you all the time, but I don't need to sing. . . . babbled Lin |
