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Monday, February 04, 2002 Shiiiiit... I have NO time to write in this... so why am I? heh, sorry for my 'potty' mouth lately.. things have just been getting into extreme stress.. especially heading into this week/night. What pisses me off is that I feel like I'm doing so much for everybody else, but when the hell do I get time to do things for me? *shrug*... doing calculus for teachers.. gov. for teachers.. website for my work.. instrument for the band... etc etc etc.. and you would think that "well you enjoy those things".. but I don't when they're forced like they are. *sigh* I am so frickin in a rut I don't want to talk about it.. basically I have finished the website for my work so that it's decent (a *massive* site), BUT.. ONE MAJOR PROBLEM: .. I can't seem to upload a single file without the whole thing seeming like it's falling apart.. a long story, outcome: there will most likely be no website to present online (as asked) even though the site is essentially done. *SIGH* Damn just fire me already. ok.. other news.. happier news. :) I met my "special friend" today and she is absolutely kick-butt awesome!! ahha.. in a class I take at school we receive 'special friends' to elementary students who need a mentor or just someone to talk to I guess. (kind of like a 'big brother'/'big sister' type thing)... my girl, I think, is possible a schizophrenic or something. ::laughs slightly:: nono, maybe not (and sorry if I'm using 'schizophrenia' in the wrong sense).. but she is so intelligent for a 10 year old.. she claims that she sees her younger twin bro. as a ghost and she communicates with him by sign language (a long story, but I believe her).. heh.. when I was talking with her she actually said she saw him.. she got up to go see what he wanted, and then she came back and said he didn't want anything but that he sometimes gets jealous when she's talking with other people..neat huh? .. at first I thought it was scary, but this is going to be very awesome to have her as my special friend. When I say she is intelligent.. I can tell.. I can just tell when people have someting to them which is amazing. She listens to sounds and draws/writes what she feels the songs represent or remind her of... it's really awesome.. esp. for someone of her age. I get to go and meet/talk with her again tomorrow. :) .. I will be meeting with her once a week after this, but she is really someone who I think I will get along with very-well with. Little kids usually bug me, but when they're brilliant.. wow.. it's really neat. She wants to work on writing and I told her I'd bring some stories I've written and some poetry.. and she's actually interested in that type of thing which is the neat part about it :) ... anyway.. maybe I'll stay posted on this.. but I feel most of it should stay confidential since it is probably very personal to her and I'm sure she wouldn't want me sharing her thouhts with everyone.. but I did want to let everyone know that I am very lucky today in being chosen for a very neat 'special friend'.. I think God has sent me to her for something, but I'm not sure what yet, heh, but I know there's something.. because I just have that *feeling* I can't explain.. when there's a purpose underlying something I can't identify yet. *smile* anyway.. 'night. . . . babbled Lin |
