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Wednesday, February 06, 2002 Happy 18th ;) that's right... today is my 18th birthday! (dang I'm getting old! *grin*) It's strange how this birthday seems so different from most. Yes, essentially it's just another year of getting older, heh, but, I don't know.. this feels like a major turning point in my life. I can't help but see myself as actually really growing older now and actually feeling, well, almost a little scared about it. For some reason it feels that now is the time to make every year count, because life is just flying by faster than I ever imagined it would. It's a little sad.. not being able to go back to my childhood years.. but at the same time exciting to see that I'm finally entering the stage in my life where I'm truly independent. From this year on, life is going to be about what I make it. Yes, it always has been that way for me to a certain extent, with the support of parents, but I feel like I'm moving on and from here.. life is really up to me. I guess it's hard for me to explain *shrug* :) .. It's just hard for me to fathom my age.. it sounds.. 'so not me'.. ::laughs slightly:: (sorry for that valley-girl impression there :Þ) .. I feel like I need to become *more* mature/responsible now, but at the same time I don't want all this responsibility.. but then I do. (just a little indecisive huh?) .. heehee.. today one of those telemarketers called.. and I usually try to be nice by just saying something like.. "-cut in- oh ok, so I'm under 18.. that won't be a problem?".. and of course they say something like 'oh nevermind -hang up-'.. but today was different because it was a lie ;) .. but I've found it to be a good/nice excuse. I used to give these smart-ass answers, but then I realized they're just people trying to make a living too.. and they probably hate their job.. so I'd just rather not make it any harder and so I usually let them down in a *nice* way by saying I'm underage. My friends and I came up with a list of everything I can do now that I'm 18. ;) ha.. though I won't take advantage of most of them, and most of them aren't good anyway. "Oh! You can receive the death penalty for a crime now!" .. ha.. greeeeeat. well I'm out :) . . . babbled Lin |
