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Friday, February 22, 2002 future plans? My dad just brought home the coolest thing ever :) hehe... a laptop that he bought for *$10*.. hehe, of course he has no clue how to use it, and neither did I really until an hour ago. It's an ooooold laptop which runs only on a very old version of dos, yet - even with how old it is - it looks like it has a modem installed.. hehe.. I could have fun with this little machine. :) :) Right now I'm just trying to get back into 'dos commands' frame of mind again to see what can be done with the thing, but it's great re-learning and discovering things I never looked into before. Windows w/ it's gui interface makes things easy *grin* but this little machine looks like it has a lot of potential for cool things once I get better at working around on it again. Hee.. I'm excited. :Þ Sometimes I'm not sure if computers/computer science (?..maybe) job is the right thing for me to go into for the future, heh, but then I see how I react to little things like this and think that some people would think I'm probably crazy/weird for my interest in such the little machine that my dad brought home, but I can't help but be amused, intrigued, and thrilled by it. ;) ha.. I guess that's what it's like to have a passion for something. And I can't help but step back, look at myself, and think how silly it seems.. that computers.. everything about them..mostly the inner workings of them..excites me. No one taught me to have this passion.. no one introduced me to it.. heh, and I have no clue where this *interest* comes from. Sometimes I think.. 'nah, I'm not *really* a computer geek' because I don't quite have the extreme knowledge and actual experience with some things that I know some 'computer wizards' do have, heh, but there's something inside of me that yearns to have all of that, and something that thrills me by the simple investigation/learning of something new about them.. how to make them *work* beyond the surface of things you see.. anyway.. I also try to think logically and realistically about life currently. Situations that prevent me from pursuing my passion to the fullest: - the need for a social life ;Þ - lack of time due to my efforts to 1st succeed on an all-around educational basis (just to fulfill our 'society' requirements for a good life in the future.. then, after forming a firm base of success on which I can stand freely, pursue my real interests.. i.e. a meaningful and permanent relationship (numero 1)... and a job which allows me to work with/learn from something I enjoy: computers (numero 2). .. oh, and I suppose 'family' should fit in somewhere there.. as I think it's important and something I want, but not something that immediately came to mind when just typing that.. hehe, so maybe it's not on the 'numero list' (things that MUST happen).. or maaaybe.. it's exactly in that order for me... 1, 2, family (3)... ::laughs slightly:: ok.. now that I have my life planned exactly how it will be... j/p :Þ we'll see.. ultimately, I think, it's God's plan... but I pray God has a plan for me similar to that. ;) hehe.. or maybe interests will change.. who knows.. but.. I don't think so. laaaadeda. . . . babbled Lin |
