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OrientedDis.. Disoriented. |
Tuesday, February 12, 2002 .. you won't read this because you don't know I exist here. I've never told you, and I hope you never find this. because you leave me both never satisfied with what I know of 'you', and at the same time.. completely hating you. But I've never hated you. I hate the fact that I have the option of hating you, but still I can't seem to figure out how. Sometimes I think you hate me. And maybe... you do. But if we are both tormented by the exact same thing - no hate - only confusion and an underlying magnetism that somehow strives to pull us closer to knowing each other.. then let it be. I understand I am half the battle though.. just by this.. these words I refuse to ever show you. And I refuse for you to do this to me. I can't explain it.. I don't understand it.. I've never understood it, and I feel hurt everytime I hear from you. Would you believe me if I told you that.. I think I might have accidentally *sigh*.no. "well some things just happen.. and some things are meant to..".. a song suddenly plays, and I wish it were you.. telling me it's ok to tell you. . . . babbled Lin |
