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Saturday, January 26, 2002 I had planned to go to my hs's girls' soccer team conference game today (against our biggest rival in our small city), but then I realized I hated most of the girls on that team and remembered how unfair try-outs were my freshman year (a long story). Anyway, yeah the girls on the team are fairly nice to me personally, heh, but if you're not 'someone' in their eyes, then they will hardly look at or speak to you.. that ticks me off.. not that they do that to me, but they do it to everyone else and the crap I hear them talk about is annoying.. and what sluts (excuse the term) some/most of them are. Heh, I'm the odd person who doesn't really fit in anywhere.. not sure if that's a good or bad thing. Bad as far as finding guys goes.. I think.. because you either have to be 'this' type or 'that' type to be 'his' type.. but then there are those few guys who take a chance by asking me out or flirting with me.. lol, and I kind of admire them for that, except feel bad for them at the same time because I'm someone who doesn't usually give relationships a chance.. at least not currently in my life. Anyway, um. Then I headed off to the mall (after backing out of going to the game).. actually I returned my snowboard boots first. We haven't got much snow this year and the boots really sucked the first time I used them too. I bought them used for a good deal, heh, at the expense of freezing my toes off the whole day snowboarding. Also, I finally returned the movie 'Bridget Jones's Diary'... my 'rents are going to kill me!.. they naturally didn't want me renting an R rated movie in the first place, but I did.. then they wouldn't let me watch it when I got home and told me to return it.. but I didn't.. and then I forgot I had the movie still and kept it hidden somewhere in my room until I would finally be alone in the house so I could watch it.. and now my parents will have a huge late fee on their account at the expense of me not returning the movie on time. ha. I suck. Back to the mall! I went to the mall today which I really did not want to do.. it was 'celebrate youth day' and I'm in a leadership club where we paint little kids' faces every year at the mall. Heh, so despite half the people backing out of doing it (and me wanting to back out), I still felt obligated to go.. and it's funny how great it feels afterwards to have done it even though I didn't want to originally do it (kind of like Sunday School teaching for me). Heh, but I had fun seeing the little kids getting super excited at the horrible little paintings I attempted on their faces.. heehee.. I remember being their age once too... hehe, and I always thought I was 'da shiz' after getting my face painted. ;) That's about it for today.. I wanted to go see some movie afterwards, but my friends and I have planned to do that tomorrow.. heh, but I don't know how I plan to do that when I have a massive test to study for which will be given to me on mon. in ap gov. :/ Not to mention my ap calc. bc hw. Oh.. ahha, I just remembered, too, yesterday I gave a friend who I've known online for a long time now *6* pictures of me.. *gasp* *grin* that's really unheard of in my world.. he's supposedly not going to have internet access at home anymore and we won't be talking much I guess (maybe e-mail.. but.. uh, I'm not good at keeping in touch with e-mail) Heh. Tricky guy.. so he gets some stuff out of me, *finally*, which is pretty dang hard to get from me.. and he's still online when he made it sound like he was going to be disconnected that night or something. ahha. Anyway, I hope Matt doesn't read this ;) .. but yeah.. supposedly the pictures I gave him are now "posterized" on his wall. Ugh.. I'm not sure what to think about that. Me: *hides* Matt: omg! Matt: You're a hottie! Me: uuuh.. haha, riiiight. .. but, thanks. Matt: And to think this whole time I didn't even know.. ...I'm always embarrassed to give pics. away, and I usually don't as a matter of my 'principles' online, heh, but a few people get them after a few years.. lol.. oh I feel so nice because of that. :Þ um, no. Heh, but then some of the reactions I get back are more embarrassing.. *shrug* I guess I just don't handle compliments well at all.. never have actually. . . . babbled Lin |
