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Saturday, November 24, 2001 So I'm just going to post here what I did in my other blog.. because I'm too lazy to type anything different, I'm ridiculous for even keeping two blogs, and this one is screaming for another entry anyway. *grin* -- :) The end of today is looking brighter. Recently a friend has told me I will 'always have free advertising for [my] site' on his site.. and then tonight a different friend has informed me he can now host my site if needed. Also, Derek and I have made plans tonight to go see Out Cold tomorrow. We're trying to find other people to go with us though - I suggested that because I don't want things being weird with just us going, plus, where I live, 'word gets around' if someone sees you with a certain person, and then suddenly there are all these assumptions and rumors everywhere. heh. so anyway :) Tomorrow will hopefully be fun. I was really hoping to go see Spy Game with 'Cola and P.J. today, but they both still have family visiting, and I said we should just plan to see it on a better-different day. That was kind of dissapointing, but we'll eventually see it and it will be great. ;) Ugh. And I know 'stalker.boy' will be visiting tomorrow with his other friend - they've been coming by every Sunday.. heh.. inviting me out to some University thing.. but I make excuses and usually don't go. Strange though; I've been kind of hoping the guy would come visit before Sunday.. hehe, just because he would be the perfect guy to see a movie like Spy Game with, but then coming back to reality, do I really want to see a movie with him? That sounds mean.. but.. he can be very weird sometimes. But I've decided to make more of an effot to be more 'sociable'/friendly with some people I've already put this invisible "x" on.. heh.. because I thought about it, and despite the sometimes-weird-things about them.. they all have their qualities which are perfectly human. (lol.. "perfectly human") anyway. Yes, I've decided I have weird qualities too, and I wouldn't want to be automatically shut-out just because of them.. and that's one of the biggest things which bothers me about other people.. when they won't give others a chance just because of 'something'... heh.. and then I realized I was being somewhat of a hypocrite in my own situation. Also, why should any "outting" with him be considered anything more than just a friendly outting? Why am I always interpreting "friendly outtings" as something more than that? Can I not just go out with a guy and have it mean nothing more than 'just a friendly outting'? Am I paranoid? Yes I'm paranoid, but I'm not completely psycho either. heh. Why should it not be interpreted as something more than a 'friendly outting' when he makes comments such as 'marry me this..'.. 'you look nice..' or.. 'suggestive this..'. heh. odd. . . but if I'm on a friendly outting.. I don't need to hear those things. Ok I'm done here. ladeda. . . . babbled Lin |
