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Saturday, August 18, 2001 Aww crap.. not this subject again? ::laughs slightly:: j/p.. I guess it's always good to figure out "where I stand" on this subject... um.. basically, a friend I met "at the program" was talking to me online... he was saying he didn't understand why a girl like me doesn't have a boyfriend.. and since I have nothing better to post in this blog, and maybe this will answer the other people who want to ask me this question but still have hesitated to.. now maybe they won't.. because I'm getting almost tired of being asked "why don't you have a boyfriend?".. but I guess I should take it as a compliment? heh. ....so this convo. takes off really from that question... Linearb r e a k [11:49 PM]: well.. hm.. I don't know.. I'll find HIM ("the perfect guy").. I think.. so, I don't know, in the meantime I don't really want to just test the waters.. because, the thought of it being "temporary" bugs me.. G [11:50 PM]: that's a fine point G [11:50 PM]: and one that i wholeheartedly agree with G [11:50 PM]: with one reservation... G [11:50 PM]: what may seem to be "temporary" may not be Linearb r e a k [11:51 PM]: lol.. ahh.. exactly. Linearb r e a k [11:51 PM]: see.. so what if I pass HIM by? That's the only thing I'm afraid of. G [11:51 PM]: talk to your parents, i guarantee that it wasn't love at first sight for them Linearb r e a k [11:51 PM]: You don't think so hm? haha.. good question I've never asked.. G [11:52 PM]: :) G [11:53 PM]: you just seem like such a great person G [11:53 PM]: you'd make alotta guys happy G [11:53 PM]: (and not with sex!!) Linearb r e a k [11:53 PM]: I would love to have a best friend/guy sort of thing (and I do have many "good guy friends"), but I don't have any guy I can really just talk to about anything on my mind about without being even the slightest self-conscious.. does that make sense? If I wanted any "deep" relationship with a guy, heh, I think, at this point in my life, I'd want a very intellectual one.. one I can discuss anything with.. the stupidest things even :Þ G[11:53 PM]: i just mean that you would light up alotta lives Linearb r e a k [11:54 PM]: haha.. exactly.. not sex... but really, that's what A LOT (not all!) are in for these days.. G [11:54 PM]: true G [11:54 PM]: which is unfortunate Linearb r e a k [11:54 PM]: but mostly at my secluded little school, I think they are... but that might be a little biased too. G [11:54 PM]: no one our age is ready for that Linearb r e a k [11:55 PM]: no I don't think so.. especially if "temporary" Linearb r e a k [11:56 PM]: I don't really understand how anyone could give that up so easily, but, I guess if "emotions" get in the way of understanding the purest meaning of "love" - not emotions - then it happens easily. *shrug* sooo. G [11:56 PM]: yeah Linearb r e a k [11:56 PM]: just thoughts of course.. hehe, I'm not any "professional" on this either. G [11:56 PM]: i'm waiting for a LOOONG while to even entertain thoughts of actually doing that G [11:57 PM]: i'm glad that you are, too G [11:57 PM]: that really says alot, because alotta kids our age are just looking for it G [11:57 PM]: speaks volumes about your character Linearb r e a k [11:58 PM]: yeah, I was going to say too.. I definitely admire people who are waiting.. *shrug* I just thinks it's really important to wait. G [11:58 PM]: it is Linearb r e a k [11:59 PM]: because we change so much as we grow up too.. of course we hope/sometimes think we have it all figured out right now, but really we don't ;) G [11:59 PM]: i think that having a life-long mutually monogamous relationship is one of the most important things in the world Linearb r e a k [12:00 AM]: definitely... Linearb r e a k [12:01 AM]: I'm hoping most *educated* individuals think so too.. and if there's more out there with the same idea, hehe, then I'm [hoping] sure I'll find the guy who's right for me out there.. G [12:01 AM]: you will Linearb r e a k [12:02 AM]: but he definitely has to hold that same value.. or anything else about him that might be perfect.. well, I don't know.. G [12:02 AM]: yeah Linearb r e a k [12:03 AM]: sometimes people when I tell them that.. they're like.. "but that's so harsh!".. is it really? To absolutely demand any guy I consider marrying has to have held that same value throughout everything? G [12:03 AM]: no, it's not harsh at all G [12:03 AM]: and don't compromise your values for anyone Linearb r e a k [12:03 AM]: k, heehee.. glad you agree.. well then.. see I can continue to be "picky", I think. Linearb r e a k [12:04 AM]: of course we have to "compromise".. but not the large things which we think someone has to have morally and such, right? Linearb r e a k [12:04 AM]: lol, I'm figuring this all out in one night... great :Þ G [12:05 AM]: compromise IS NOT always good!!!! G [12:05 AM]: when someone is dead-wrong, you don't compromise G [12:05 AM]: especially whn it comes to morality G[12:06 AM]: compromising your morality Linearb r e a k [12:06 AM]: yep, I agree G [12:06 AM]: is akin to abdicating them Linearb r e a k [12:07 AM]: yeah, that whole idea (will I ever find him?) is a little frightening to me, but I guess it shouldn't be.. but then things DO feel lonely sometimes.. but then that's just the emotional support I wish I just had from someone else than my family.. but then.. I think it's worth holding out too, and "testing the waters" just really isn't my sort of thing, especially when I know there's something wrong with them (morally esp.) too. G [12:08 AM]: true Linearb r e a k [12:08 AM]: but, in your case, you're lucky to have found someone you feel you truly connect with. G [12:10 AM]: yes ma'am G [12:10 AM]: we both love eachother dearly Linearb r e a k [12:11 AM]: good ;) G [12:17 AM]: question... Linearb r e a k [12:18 AM]: hm? G [12:18 AM]: if you found THE person, and went out with him for years& years, but u never married for some reason or another, would you find it morally reprehesnible to be intimate with him? G [12:19 AM]: (as in the INTIMATE kinda intimate) Linearb r e a k [12:19 AM]: hm, I've thought about that... I haven't really figured that out.. G [12:19 AM]: i'm thinking about it alot, too G [12:19 AM]: i've reached my decision Linearb r e a k [12:19 AM]: when it came right down to it... I figured I'd just have to evaluate it AT the time I was really questioning that.. Linearb r e a k [12:20 AM]: and it is? Linearb r e a k [12:20 AM]: well, hm, if it's THE person.. then, no I don't think there would be a problem.. but if it's THE person.. why wouldn't the other person just marry them? G [12:21 AM]: ___ and i are gonna be together for a long time.. Linearb r e a k [12:21 AM]: there should be no worries of commitment when it comes right down to it... unless you're not SURE it's THE person.. aha.. then, there's doubt. G [12:21 AM]: if in the next 6 or 7 yeas we're not married because of school, or schedules or whatever else may arise, i would have sex with her G [12:21 AM]: no doubt Linearb r e a k [12:22 AM]: *nod*... soo.. but would you plan on marrying her, say, in the future? Linearb r e a k [12:22 AM]: after schedules/school.. etc.. G [12:22 AM]: we're marrying G [12:22 AM]: definitely Linearb r e a k [12:23 AM]: lol, well then... she's the (tired of capitalizing "the") one then, right? G [12:24 AM]: I loved her even before I met her G [12:24 AM]: she's DEFINITELY THE one Linearb r e a k [12:24 AM]: Why would there be anything "morally reprehensible" about being intimate then? G [12:25 AM]: i dunno Linearb r e a k [12:25 AM]: I see nothing wrong with that if you know why you're taking that huge step of intimacy.. G [12:25 AM]: some people think tha sex outside of marriage, no matter what the circumstance, is wrong Linearb r e a k [12:26 AM]: hm, well, I could agree with that.. simply because there's no "obstacles" (usually) of commitment in the cases of those who are not married.. they are simply doing the intimate part for pleasure.. not the relationship aspect. G [12:27 AM]: true . . . babbled Lin |
